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Today-in-case-you-didnt-know by TanyaSimoneSimpson

This morning, I had two cups of coffee—the first was filter and the second was instant. Even with coffee, I ran out of energy to make coffee. Crying with my face turned towards the wall, I wanted to say something like my heart is breaking. I wanted to write poetry about you, for you, to you. I wanted you to be able to read it. I wanted you to laugh because I have to wrap words around everything but you’ve always been more about action. I stared blankly at a screen that was anything but blank, trying to form sentences to make sense of this, but they melted and dripped over my hands.

This afternoon, I tried to will breath to you across the curve of a planet that somehow still turns. We should be able to have that connection because I need it so much and a need this powerful should defy all natural laws. I would give you half my body if I could, for all it’s worth. I would rip it apart with my bare hands and carry it to you in a heart shaped box or a cut glass coffin or bleeding through my fingers. These thousands of miles are nothing compared to what I would trade with The Great You-Name-It, if only.

This evening, my stomach lurched and tied itself in knots, reminding me to do normal things like eating, drinking, waiting for the phone to ring. Sometimes all it reminded me of was the moment you left, me asking you to please not do anything terribly reckless and you grinning and promising you wouldn’t. You lied.

Now, night finds its way to me and my waiting. Only sleep here, no coma, but mostly hours in the dark fearing the inevitable moment in the future when I realise I’ve forgotten what your voice sounded like.

Today, you are dying and my heart fractures in time with its own steady beat and I love you. In case you didn’t know.

This is based loosely on a couple of poems I wrote a while ago that never felt finished, possibly because they were waiting to be cannibalised into a flash fiction prompt piece.

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For the month of January 2017, I wrote a piece of flash fiction (almost!) every day based on a set of prompts. You can see a list of the prompts and links to the stories on my blog, here. I posted the pieces at TanyaSimoneSimpson.com and am sharing some of them on DA too. Obviously I'd love it if you visited my blog cause that's where all my writing and lots of other stuff lives so a wider audience there would be awesome, but I'm happy to share with my DA family here as well.

Some of my written work tends towards the darker side of things so for the purpose of posting it on DA I'll be applying the Mature Content tag if I think there's any chance at all that any of the content in a story might not be suitable for younger readers. I'm generally massively over-cautious about this kind of thing, partly because I genuinely do not want to upset anyone and partly because I don't want to be on the receiving end of the bile and rage that is sometimes directed at people who work in more subversive creative genres.

If a Mature Content tag isn't necessary as per DA's guidelines but a story contains themes or details that it may benefit people to know about up-front so they can make an informed choice about reading without risking being retraumatised, the appropriate content warnings will be included in the description of the piece.

I love having the opportunity to share words as well as pictures and I hope you enjoy reading my creations :heart:

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TanyaSimoneSimpson.com
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tiamat9 Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2017
I could really feel the emotion of this piece. Descriptive and beautiful.
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TanyaSimoneSimpson Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2017
Thank you :hug:
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tiamat9 Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2017
My pleasure:hug:.
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princevlad39 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2017
:hug:
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TanyaSimoneSimpson Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2017
It's OK, it's fiction!
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princevlad39 Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2017
Good, I was worried about you.  :hug:
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Manlarr Featured By Owner Feb 20, 2017   Photographer
Again, you can write. Great work!
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TanyaSimoneSimpson Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2017
Thanks :hug: I'm glad I'm sharing some of my writing on DA. I dithered about it for ages because this is my photography place, but it feels good to throw some words around here too.
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Manlarr Featured By Owner Feb 23, 2017   Photographer
Glad you did :D
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MarieStars Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2017   Traditional Artist
It's the first time I'm reading your writing and I love it!! It's really expressive and so well written! 
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TanyaSimoneSimpson Featured By Owner Feb 18, 2017
Thank you so much :hug:
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PaMonk Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2017  Professional Artist
It's Loved here so Nice...Heart Huggle! Heart 
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TanyaSimoneSimpson Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2017
Thank you :hug:
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PaMonk Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2017  Professional Artist
Heart Hug Heart 
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Aeirmid Featured By Owner Feb 15, 2017   Digital Artist
That is haunting and heart-wrenching. Beautiful. :heart:
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TanyaSimoneSimpson Featured By Owner Feb 17, 2017
Thank you :hug:
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